We have been doing some remodeling. We had carpet removed in our downstairs bedrooms and went down to wood floors. The house looks good and feels so clean. We were able to get into all the far corners; all the dark recesses.
That is what we need to do in our lives and in our spirits. Reach back into the far corners; into all the dark recesses where no one can tread but us and God. What is in there that makes us who we are? What is it that causes us to "snap" at times over things not worth worrying about; little things. Little things often times seem so monumental to us because of things that happened in our past. They lurk there in the dark recesses until something or someone triggers them, and then they come bursting forth with a force that takes us (not to mention the person to whom our outburst is aimed) completely by surprise. Most of the time we don't even realize what's bothering us. We attribute the problem to the person who triggered our undoing.
My favorite prayer is Psalm 139:23-24: Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my ways; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting. We need to search our hearts, our souls, and our minds along with God. We need to see what's in those dark corners of our minds where we don't like to tread. Do a little house cleaning. Pray a prayer of sanctification over our past discrepencies. More than likely, we have already asked God to forgive them. He probably has forgiven them, but we have a tendency to not forgive ourselves.
We need to pay attention when God brings those things to mind. So many times, we simply dismiss them. God gently nudges and we shove them back in the corner to be brought out again at an inopportune time.
I would like to get down to the bare floors; to get all the corners cleaned out; to start with raw material; to come clean. Maybe someday...